Days ... 2 dark days!!

The Monday dawn of 17th Dec ’07 did not do good to me. The dark layer of the dusk prior night stayed… an abrupt hiatus that we had to put for this uncertainty, solution-less problem, the gorgeous nightmare… the love - supposed-to-be eternal love!
3 months time to get over 2 years of affection, kindness.. the happy days.. mischief, grace, charm, poise… trust, dignity, composure. the two-in-one feel!
those 2 days, your strength, character and spirit were my reason for waking up in the morning till drifting off to sleep.. every inch of my thoughts carried something so light being so heavy, it kept shouting at me “Let's go back to the way we were”! For me you’re my better half and we make each other whole! But tell me your side of it--I'm listening.
I felt so lost and wondered how you would have handled the same! But I could find you matured enough unlike how you were in our early times. I dreamt of scrapping somebody in Hindi, you were my reviewer there and opened my eyes to see everything empty around. Hassan buys Amir a handbook of Quoran on his birthday, and Amir would read stories and the poems he writes to Hassan, under a pomegranate tree - I don’t know the correlation but somehow remembered you in each word of this part in Kite runner…
I missed you! To the core. To the extent that no one could envisage!
tho the cute lil candle that I tried to lit in the shell where I dumped myself gave a room full of light, yet I could see just the shade that was leftover.
And in the shade, it was You whom I could spot… along with myself! Now the one (me) has broken into two :(
It dint take me more than 2 days – to break this dreadful silence between us.
The moment I saw a message creeping in my mobile phone, 'I'll be late today' tears gushed out and the moment next it was me back, I couldn't control asking you to come to me!

But whatever, its this we know, we have to take it. Now the rest life is for crying, cribbing those who were not for us. The amount of respect that we give them to the level we try not to hurt them, they don’t really deserve it. They are just old, so though they do injustice to us, it’s their age and we are not supposed to hurt them now. Let them be contented for the rest of their lives that we dint go against them. Here, we stand taller than what they do! at every aspect of life… spoiling our own selves to see them smile! and this life, its pathetic to fathom what it would be like without you in it!

Belated Birthday wishes!!

Fortunately or unfortunately, all these days I could/did not write a post due to the usual glistening reasons that include work schedule, jammed weekends, some of the mysterious happenings with life, laziness, Freecell (ya, the ever existing windowsXP game! for some good-own reasons I'm pre-occupied with playing this, on my dumb-lil so-called office pc these days which eats up most of my time and getting me big-time addicted to it!) etc.

Two important dates to mention here:
1. Sep 26th - Belated Happy Birthday to this wonderful blog!
2. Oct 23rd - Belated Happy Birthday to the most-wonderful creator(never mind :p) of this blog! :p

I'm sorry, my dear chotu 1year-oldie! Though late. please do accept my hearty wishes. It was a fine sunny-rainy morning, a small seed sprouted in this blogger's brain for not-so-big reasons to develop a good habit - writing! The blogger is not a serial writer who belong to the family of J.K.Rowling's grand-old-mother who had born back on earth as his daughter-in-law's hubby's intermediate friend's cousin's brother's sister, but a decent-damselic, good quality(tho not of 1st grade) writer. A post which was written to an internal web-based article zone, after getting rejected by another biased bugger, landed in this blog page just to prove that it worths getting published across some corner of the world! Gradually the blog got few guides, few fans, some insights, several thoughts, some fun and lots like this, once the blogger realized what exactly the blog posts do to those who dare to put their fingers in even here! Though there were several stormy hindrances to the blogger like hectic releases, tiresome times after 14 hrs of short nap a day, a foreign tour-nothing but my so-called onsite etc, the blogger coped-up to be in the list of true, dedicated bloggers, managed dropping in 33 posts on-the-whole!
So, here is wishing you many more years of life! with few more crooked posts!!

Next turns out to be the birthday blast of the proud owner of this blog! Secondary are the analysis if good things happened or not so far, but the not-so-pleasing thing is that I'm growing older and getting matured more by looks. The day started with the unusual cake-cutting ceremony. ya, it wasn't an usual one, cuz this time the cake had come from a special person! and this person is not so appealed by this kind of cake-cutting or whatever surprises, i don't know. but somehow managed to put in some effort in buying a huge yummy creamy Black-Forest, along with a Fast-track watch, and dropping it at my room that too without me knowing it. It was truly a surprise for me as I never expected such gestures from him anytime. Many Thanks to You! few friends were around and I cut the b'day cake with more of them ending up back on my face. And all the birthday blast was over with that. Rest day could get as dumb as I expected. thanks to my friends for taking time to remember and wish me then. I dint even have my bike to go out or do something, bike came along with somebody almost when the day was over with good amount of showers which managed to spoil whatever little plan that existed. Ultimately a crappy day to remember! after all the confusions that someone could give, v's mom had sent a birthday greeting text.

Did You Know!?

Hmm.. its sort of the Did You Know column that you get to see in TOI everyday!
Wonder what can be the info!? Obvious every software techie's love towards Google. But how many of us have really observed this -- Not sure.

While my engineering brain was too hungry, I was venturing for some unknown how-many-times-will-you-pop-up-stupid-error into the holy Google, it all of a sudden hit the cute, little, round, orangish apple on the home-page! And again its the engineering brain, went ahead R&D-ing on the major blocker P1 critical issue ;)

A 2 liner on this would be: Roald Dahl (13 September 1916 – 23 November 1990) was a Welsh novelist, short story author and screenwriter of Norwegian parentage, famous as a writer for both children and adults. His work includes Children writing, Adult fiction, non-fiction, Plays, Filmscripts, TVs etc.,
And a more detailed blah-blah here

And ya.. who can come up with such a wonderful logo other than namma Google :)

Happy B'day dude!!! :D

On land!!!!!!!!!

After meddling around with my login id for a few mins, I landed here. after a dumbu here asked me ... 'hmm.. mm.... y our machi has gone into hibernation period?? or is it the regular bloggers 2 night enthu - no updates' its a prestige issue for me, while 'v' stayed back for work, i decided to sit and pen down a line or few to bug you al again!
On land- i meant the usual on-site enthu, was jumping and flying althrough and finally got back, came down.. zzzz... landed!
Few things to mention:
1. London - more of a mixture of colors.. grhhh in any sense u take. full summer and holiday mood and of course, was totally busy!
2. Southampton, a wonderful, calm quite place! loved my stay there. ppl wimme called it a 'dead city' tho.
3. Dunno why people there are in such a big hurry to get back home by 5PM (a very good habit to be followed). Infact we Indians slog so much at office, still our population is high :p :p
4. Daytime: 4AM-10PM. and needless to say, very short nights (think the above point goes clear here). summer and they really look for it!
5. Will be greatful (This word outta ma mouth for the 1st ever time :D)if I get another chance! Could see not so much but a lil heavy pay-slip, month end! :)

some pics out of the 3GB hola ones which we carried back along!:

Cutie and the fishies behind :)
Day before leaving for UK, dinner with mom and cusins @ Inchara! Worth a time :)


The most expected Journey begun! Wonder if this is called heaven!!??


The blue sky and me together! was fun :)


The awesome Southampton! zmmmm... d max no of signals at a single junction!


My Photography skill! A click from my room window- 3 miles away Light house!


Naughttieeeeeeeeee :D Don't you really get it. Ok try finding seven markable spots!!


Food -- The most essential thing of life! This story that I gotta mention here. 1st day - sponsored lunch from the client side.. tho i'm not from somalia, was in this big enthu to fall into the fry pan n finish the entire dish! a quick walkthrough of the menu... decided on la'tish-pish-tush (plz dont ask me wat it was) looked spicy yummy hot - nah hautche!! took, ate, suddenly like what comes in Jackie movies, wanted to go puke. asked what really was it after finishin half! got to know thats the most ever crappy food :( BEEF!! :(( was runnin to the loo and cube 100 times in 4 hrs stopped experimentin there. The standard dinner menu then on! Doesnt it look yummie tooo!?


Should spend a part of life there atleast for these 2 things! The variety cars and not-to-mention, the clean roads!!


Travel to London - A fresh weekend mood, Saturday morning, 14-Jul-07 8.30AM BST! A view of the train from inside.


Tubes: The so-called underground trains!


The lovely never-halting clock -- Big Ben!


Dunno y this wierd name! The London EYE... nope! not my eye.. london eye :p


A view from the cruise (ya.. can call it the motor boat)


Falling down.. falling down!
whats falling down!!???
London bridge is falling down!
My fair Lady!!!! :)


blah-blah-boohhh.. a good view!


Dont look at the mottai boss! Look behind the boss-cruise. The city cruise which we took to go around so that we can cover most of the places in 1 day!


The semi-circular building. Great sense of architecture


Queen was in?? sad... tat she couldnt get my invite! she was out! yup.. The Buckhingham palace!!!


Dudes showing their cycling skills! I have a video too. But no time and good means to upload :|


Bubyeee London!!!


Thats ... ... hehehehhh Meeeeeeeeeeeee :) Naaahhhhh.. me not really that so short :|


Final summarizing point about the whole experience: "!"

hurrah.. hurrah... hurrayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

07/07/07 Saturday 5.30PM IST
Cab at the door step.
'januu.. did u pack the gloves and socks? take care.. luggage should not exceed 20kg' - ya ma ok.. take this.. take that - ok ma. on and on.. mom kept giving me instructions.
5.40 - luggages in the cab, with few car exchanges pushed in everybody and started.

5.45PM IST
Tring tring.. tring tring.... my awesome oc 1100 ringing.
'temme sweetz, wru. have you guys started?'
'v' said 'no, tis dabba mahesh macha said he'll be late. so have you started? wru?'
'ya, started. its me, mom and s in this cab'
'v' - oh then even i can join you in the cab only instead of driving 15 km.
'come then.. fast. i ll be der at the signal in other 10 mins'
'v' - then i gotta ruch, catch ya..
5.55 - at the signal 80, 79, 78 .. ... 8, 7, 6.. . 'v' over the phone. bugger, rushing into the moving car, tunnnggg (dumb lil head got hit). seconds going down and my pressure was raising. anyways with me now, other 1.5 hrs max together :)

6-7 - me mom v and s chatting in the car happily.

7.00PM IST
Bangalore airport. zzmmmmmm.... (too much confusions)

7.30PM IST
got to check in at domestic entry since there's a halt at mumbai.
v acting like a big man, giving major directions. but all utterrrrrrr flop... :p

9.00PM
Boarding, security check-in all through. without any problem. Jet Airways to Mumbai.

9.30PM IST
First step into the flight for the first ever time!!! My heart wonders. it was lovely in all the ways I could imagine :)
9.45 - Ears getting blocked. 'V' had already instructed, dump cotton buds. Up above the beautiful hep city, Bangalore. was trying to count each and every building that I could see. not bad, atleast from such height I felt as if the cars are alligned in a neatly scaled lines :)

10.30PM IST
supposed to land @Chatrapati Shivaji International Airport. But common mann, we are Indians. come what may we cant follow timings!
Flight to London from Mumbai @ 1.25. But we'are still in the air :p

08/07/07 12.40AM IST
zyyoiiinnnn.... Landing! Got into the bus to reach the Imigration building.
Another handsome was waiting already.. 'Anybody travelin to London?'
(Gush inside) yeah!
come wimme.. quick quick..

12.50 - @the immigration
1.15AM IST -
Rushing for 9W 0120. Jet Boeing it is. But could find no difference from the usual Volvo A/C sleeper that runs here.

08/07/07 Sunday 6.45AM BST
Hurrah hurray hurray.. Landed.. London Heathrow!!!!!!!!!
The longest ever dream has true! A cute lil smile deep inside the heart:) Lovely weather welcoming us!

Me here @Southampton, UK working on-site from client's place. will be soon back to India. Will upload pics once I copy them all :)
ciao...

dunno-what-to-name

the title line and my previous post would make you wonder what I'm upto! If not, then you should soon reach out to a psychiatrist.. or may be an astrologist to get tips on how to grow your thinking line as huge as a banyan tree!

For the past 1 year, I was caught in the hands of a lady animal, as crude as a mother-in-law who comes in this story which you would've read in newspapers often.. "girl set herself on fire... prolonged harassment by mother-in-law!". No, you are wrong! I'm still single. I'm freed from my previous house owner Bit**! Now New place, new roomies, very good food. May be I'll blow up a lil more in the next few months, Hope so.. Need to get married yaar; For how long only can I be single :D So tough you know!!

How tough is telling a 'no' to people. that too to somebody whom you are really close and show utmost respect to! I'm not able to believe when some story like 'RHTDM' happens with myself. No, the guy aint Madhavan, for I'm not Diya:p but ya.. better than him in all possible ways! Me like a fish out of water. I used to wonder when people say that they are not able to have good sleep, proper food and blah-blah if they are really crazy enough to do all that. Now I wonder if this is called being closer to this four letter word H-E-L-L!
One thing I can beat upon is that few people say on few things that they would never do it, but nobody can ever be stubborn with this funda. Every damn soul on earth is pushed to a situation where they have to break this ward and come out doing what they beat once that they would never do it on earth!

Yet another farewell, my lovely way of referring him 'macha'. Gone for his MBA to SIBM. A meaningful mail he wrote to me when I asked him why would he go for this institute and that if he is like a dog starving for the bone, just getting in somewhere while he deserves something bigger than this. Though I know his lovely character before, the mail increased my love and respect towards him. Lots of people live a real meaningful life too not like just for the heck of it!
check this out: we gifted him a Fast Track watch on his farewell. we love you mann! miss you lots.

There is this guy here who is now a father of a 3rd child! For the first 2 kids my manager sent a mail to the team saying that 'Mr.X is blessed with a baby so n so. congrats'. But this time nobody seemed to ever remember and our Mr.X mailed all of us himself saying that 'My wife delivered a baby blah-blah'. I'm sorry, not tryin to make fun. Just that when things happen repetitively people tend to forget the importance of it and this case its really too much!! Loll :))

I see this guy and wonder always why dont I write a post which speaks on one single thing! Tough to achieve it, anyways will keep trying. Hey I'm not a jealous goose :|

Keep Jumping.. Keep Beating!!

For a change I've decided to put up a health tips column here!
So.. check this out. a forward which I got over the mail..

The content of the forward went like this..

Dear Friends,

Just check this out and think about your healthy body......
The Organs of your body have their sensory touches at the bottom of your foot.
Typically they are shown as points and which organ it connects to. If you massage these points, you will find relief from aches and pains as you can see the heart is on the left foot.
It is indeed correct since the nerves connected to these organs terminate here.
This is covered in more details in Acupressure Studies and Natural Health Textbooks.

God created our body so well. He made us walk so that we will always be pressing these pressure points and thus keeping these organs activated healthy "if we are walking regularly at all times".

Keep Walking!







Take Care!

Summer.. Where are my holidays!!??

These days I'm being way too jobless. Around 2 weeks back, I was jam packed with work that I could not even take out time to breathe happily. Now the project has come to an end, so I'm in dunno-ho-long-to-wait state! Trying to do some self study and learning though being like this I'm not really for it :| So what! I'm spending more time blogging. A never ending story, life of too many people who belong to different race, style, culture. Lacs of views, thoughts, ideas, opinions and what not! I'm liking it!
And this is now summer, every school-going kid is in the state of immense pleasure waking-up late and no school, no books, no teachers, no rank sheets. I miss those wonderful days when I used to hide my mathematics book to escape from the tuition classes which my no-holiday-giving-guru used to conduct even in summer :( though we plan and escape to my granny's house only to have this luxury of living in a 3 storeyed building, running to the terrace to watch those planes, knowing that Maniratnam is sure gonna direct a movie called Rang-de-Basanti within a short period of 10 years, to give him a front page scene we used to jump and try over to touch these planes when they cross just above our lil heads! play the most traditional Indian game which any highly disciplined people would play with granny, grandpa, amma, mausi, aunty with 52 cards till late in the night. Rent the Hamam girl's chotu cycle from the cycle-wala who had his shop for rent in our home, ride it like Michael Schumacher to teach the cycle-wala 'parts of a cycle' lesson! I can count the number of time I would have seen the sunset in the past one year, I miss those lovely evening walk in the Besant nagar shore pinching the tails of those butter biscuit eating dogs which travel in A/C car.
Now I think like this and pass my days "If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older -Abraham Sutzkever"
Most of my summer now goes in "improving my digital and analog skills, for an Engineer to survive these skills are way too important" for this is the comment my so-called supervisor had given in my last appraisal!
One other friend cum colleague of mine got engaged recently. There's this guy who had a huge crush on this girl and who is a good friend of mine! We both decided to go to the venue together. When he came to my place to pick me up he gave a comment on my make-up 'U look good while coming to office yaar!' What to say.. I kept wiping my face all the way till we reached the hall. Embarrassing comment yet so polite :p (that's how I consoled myself) But many over the party commented that I was looking good.. ok!!!??
Reading a series of Sydney Sheldon novels! I wonder why this person doesn't know to write a story without involving se*, whereas these novels are this popular may be only because of this matter inside!! I manage to finish 1 book per day. But that doesn't mean this matter inside is making me read at the rate of air!

Home Sweet Home :)

This post is on the new house which I had bought recently. I had mentioned the same in this blog few days back.
So i had gone home over a long weekend 2 weeks back and could capture some part of my dream house with a Canon cam that 'v' had got from his US trip. Now don't let your dream horse fly & imagine this Asian paints ad, 'new house, new cam.. ...' there's nothing like that, cam he bought it for himself:( i think its a 6mega pixel one, so slim n cute, awesome clarity and i simply love it!
Find some of the pics below:
Entrance:

Living room:

Dining hall:

This is the first property which I have bought on my own after I started earning. Ours is a small family of 4 including me & my sis, this house is the only biggest asset for us today! I'm too emotional about it for each piece of the house tells me how/what all i had to go through to bring up this! I know I speak more like this usual senti characters that appear in Karan Johar stories that he might come to me for his next movie. So why to upset the dream of many guys in my company, let me stay here only :D
Area: 885 sq ft - 900rs/sq ft
Now if I come to the 'M vitamin, It costed me around 8.5L (so you can imagine which city I would have bought it at;)) wherein 7L is from the home loan by ICICI, Floating interest started with 9.25% in Nov '06 and now its floated upto 10%, tenure is 20 years. One greatest benefit out of this is the whole amount gives us tax exemption, therefore this year I would tend to pay only half of the amount what I would actually have to pay.
Few of my friends ask me why did I go for floating, this is cuz of 2 things:
1. The fixed interest rate was considerably high around 13% whereas floating was only 9.25% while I took.
2. I was told that anytime I wish, I can convert it into fixed anytime. So my mom suggested to go for floating for the time-being and once it soars to 13%, convert it into fixed!
I found this idea better and went for floating. But now the biggest doubt is the time I wish to go for fixed, would they give me the with 13% interest, cuz when floating interest goes high, even fixed will increase. So now God knows what! Let it be that anda-ka-kasam matter, I don't wanna think bout it!
Also few told me that HDFC had got good deals and that Home loan = HDFC. But I did not find things that I found convenient about ICICI. Another colleague of mine has recently taken HDFC home loan and he said its good, his is again floating but the interest is 11.5% :o
I think 3-5 years down the line, one should be a crorepathi to buy a property particularly! ATB for all the future crorepathis!! ;)

chameleon!

Unless you are from a different planet where you do not get to see any human beings who always do this back stabbing, you should be knowing the meaning of this word 'chameleon'. Though it is a noun & decades back God had named some poor animal as chameleon, it well suits several human beings these days!
I wonder if this is what 90% of humans do, they are not able to see somebody living happily. They cant see the other person smiling or bright. They have to get your life screwed for you causing no harm to the next person, for you staying happy with what you have!!
Oh Life! Whom would I question. I'm being kind of disgruntled here. Is there somebody called an Almighty really existing! When we learn to take all the bad things that happen to us in a positive way, why should there be a God existing. When something that went wrong sometime is put right after a huge time gap, does God's power really come into picture!? When a man with some more hard work can get a thing happen in the same time gap, does God really play a part in day-to-day happenings that affect someone physically and mentally!?
Funniest part here would be whatever it is I cant cease trusting Him! Its something like asking a baby to stop loving the mother:!

Friendship - Persistence!

This post is after a recent visit to my native over the long weekend.
Attended a friend's wedding, she was my school senior still we shared a very beautiful friendship. she had given all the help, care, affection, advice which i always needed. we've spent lot of time together, going out, talking over nights, exchanging secrets, what not!
i was kinda stunned during the wedding.. partially out of happiness and rest cuz of the way our friendship is gonna be after this!
i do not really imagine a great bond physically after this, meaning exchange of phone calls, meeting up whenever we find a small chance also and a list like this. in fact once she got engaged only, i could find a major difference in our friendship. I'm still not convinced with the fact that this happens only with girls or it depends on the individual. i really see greater number of males who continue friendship over life, but real less number of girls.
so what about me!? i want to speak to my friends well like how it was when we were together. but i don't find the same enthu or response from the other side due to which i lose interest too.
this girl has been telling me from the time she got engaged that this will go for only few days, that I'm not finding time for other things, but later things will get normal and everything will be back in place. I still feel chances are very less. Is it that girls turn too responsible after the wedding, too busy taking care of family that we forget to take care of ourselves?
For the moment, I wouldn't call this greater range of contact as being together always, but juz having regular phone calls, the time which we take out to call each other, sharing things, laughs, happiness thereby letting each other know that the friendship we shared once is always alive n that We'll be there for each other always!

(W) eekend/aynad

after my pathetic trip to coorg, went on a really outrageous trip last weekend!
I really loved this place. total 9 of us, tat shud be an obvious no, considering the fact that i prefer traveling by car (most times qualis) Planning & arrangement was done by another friend of ours, so was quiet a costly trip. stayed in woodlands inn.
Remarkable place was Yedakkal caves, an awesome, breath-taking trek! It seems the place was named after an earthquake which caused a huge rock struck between 2 other rocks. Otherwise was a huge mountain, which is 5000ft high from mean sea level. crude way to climb up. it was getting hot like furnace by around 11AM itself, was wearing black-t and so i came out like a fried chicken. i cant get the pics explain you better, cuz it'll just be a mountain, you can come back and ask if i had juz taken it from some website!
next was a falls called Meenmutti falls... but it wasn't like we were going towards water, cuz we never reached the falls. While going from B'lore, we heard that people cant get into this falls. but after going there, the localites told us that there will be guides and they'll take us through short cut so then we can reach the water and get into the water directly! we couldn't deny believing it, so we took a guide. the short cut route was really horrible to climb, you need to have a very good grip in ur foot/shoes cuz the way was full of hot dry sand and it was very much slippery. still 8 of us were climbing with much difficulty.
But there were 2 culprits,
one was this female who thinks that she has been living a queen's life and that she has never put her foot on the ground it seems! she was crying, cribbing the guide and what not. poor guide, i pity him. looking at us, he must have thought that we're youngsters and so can climb without any prob and in full josh, (of course he must've been thinking that he can make nice money too) and took us into that forest. but it was juz totally opposite.
i couldn't really see his(guide's) face when these people were shouting at him! He couldn't leave it all and go, cuz he'll be losing cash, he must also be concerned that he shouldn't leave us in the middle of some forest and go, though we were in a position to trace back the route. Anybody after getting such humiliations from another human wouldn't prefer being there in that place. Sorry mann! I apologize for it all. Be careful next time!
the other was this fellow who never does any kind of adventures in life, but that day was in full enthu, like this cat which sees the milk. he was walking while the guide was with the queen trying to bring her up safely and few of us were following him. after reaching some point, we said lets sit here and wait for the queen to reach down. by then there was a set of guys who were crossed us and went down, within no time they came back saying it was a dead end and so we need to take a different route. they were all climbing up while we were watching them, it was a really narrow route, only one foot can be kept at a point of time, the other side there was nothing. if you juz slip by mistake also gone will you be, 600-700ft down i guess! that was the last point, there were few rulers who decided to come back! Over is the falls story turning into a trek story!
thats it for day1. day2 went almost well, a lake, another view point, a speed boating and finally some place called kurva island. went decent. let me put up few pics along. enjoyyy
Yedakkal caves:


Pookot lake:

Kuruva Island:

and a lot more like this. total of 4 cams, showed all the photography skills that we possess, around 3GB photographs. superb time!
totally it was an adventurous one! enjoyed really. 2 days with 'v' & other friends. awesome time. we were playing dumb charades althrough in the car and room. was real fun!
end of the day it was worth spendin time and cash! was dead tired and there felt the happiness!
would love to go on more like this :)

Courageous.....thup

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."
mine is shrinking now..
add "after" before every point
1. working on a never ending project, call it a huge learning experience
2. listening to a set of same 300 songs around 100 times a day,
3. walk for about 4 km, for a change not in the morning or evening, but during this time 10AM-1AM, between my cube and my lead's.
4. doing approx 10:1 night outs
5. getting out of this no-onsite frustrations,
6. being in this prolonged wait-gonna-continue-till-june
i've grown kinda courageous.. courageous enough to lose my mobile, ya may sound like no big deal! fate of this cute, greyish 2600, with only 2rs balance in it has got over around 11:30AM IST today! but i dont afford losing it at any point of time. so..
1. no more hutch care/postpaid/credit card request calls
2. no more messaging till mid night and falling asleep in between a hot conversation, ending up in irritating the other person more
3. no need to be conscious in malls/any crowded places that case
4. no need to carry a hand bag while wearing a salwar
5. no need to check for missed call/message in an infinitely longer interval of 2 minutes
6. no problem of mid night buggers
planning to stay without a mobile for next 6 months atleast, atmost 6 yrs!
killer is "Mr.Angry".. i was angry, angry like mad. i couldn't hit myself or him, i was hitting the poor mobile. threw it down twice in full anger, both the times it shattered into pieces! Third time threw it and walked off, just in 2 minutes i went back to take it, but couldn't find it. searched, searched for around 3 continuous hours. there were only 2 females in that place when i was fighting, in just a single moment i'm not able to believe how can somebody jump in there and flick it! i'm so depressed thinking of it!
like what this Chinese Proverb says, "If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow".. i'm caught in this 100 days of sorrow now!
what do i think of myself i don't know. anger killing me spoiling my life. shit, get the hell out of it!
need to realize this "If we practice and eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, soon the whole world will be blind and toothless"
causes of anger are reasonable. but whatever it may be, one moment of silence and patience is all needed. else unfit to live a human life!! Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance!
in the middle of all these commotions, a good thing to get a relief! promotion.. for this 2 yrs of life/death thing!!
nopz.. next month increment... definitely not on a new mobile purchase!!

Sometimes it comes back to us!!

This is a forward which I got over the mail. when analyzed with one's philosophical skills, there's a lot of meaning that can be imbibed in different aspects.
Read through and find my analysis at the end.

At the 1994 annual awards dinner given for Forensic Science, AAFS

President Dr Don Harper Mills astounded his audience with the legal complications of a bizarre death.

Here is the Case:
On March 23, 1994 the medical examiner viewed the body of Ronald Opus and concluded that he died from a shotgun wound to the head. Mr. Opus had jumped from the top of a ten-story building intending to commit suicide. He left a note to the effect indicating his despondency. As he fell past the ninth floor his life was interrupted by a shotgun blast passing through a window, which killed him instantly. Neither the shooter nor the deceased was aware that a safety net had been installed just below the eighth floor level to protect some building workers and that Ronald Opus would not have been able to complete his suicide the way he had planned.

"Ordinarily, " Dr Mills continued, "A person, who sets out to commit suicide and ultimately succeeds, even though the mechanism might not be what he intended, is still defined as committing suicide." That Mr. Opus was shot on the way to certain death, but probably would not have been successful because of the safety net, caused the medical examiner to feel that he had a homicide on his hands.

In the room on the ninth floor, where the shotgun blast emanated, was occupied by an elderly man and his wife. They were arguing vigorously and he was threatening her with a shotgun. The man was so upset that when he pulled the trigger he completely missed his wife and the pellets went through the window striking Mr. Opus. When one intends to kill subject "A" but kills subject "B" in the attempt, one is guilty of the murder of subject "B".

When confronted with the murder charge the old man and his wife were both adamant and both said that they thought the shotgun was unloaded. The old man said it was a long-standing habit to threaten his wife with the unloaded shotgun. He had no intention to murder her. Therefore the killing of Mr. Opus appeared to be an accident; that is, if the gun had been accidentally loaded. The continuing investigation turned up a witness who saw the old couple's son loading the shotgun about six weeks prior to the fatal accident.

It transpired that the old lady had cut off her son's financial support and the son, knowing the propensity of his father to use the shotgun threateningly, loaded the gun with the expectation that his father would shoot his mother. Since the loader of the gun was aware of this, he was guilty of the murder even though he didn't actually pull the trigger. The case now becomes one of murder on the part of the son for the death of Ronald Opus.

Now comes the exquisite twist. Further investigation revealed that the son was, in fact, Ronald Opus. He had become increasingly despondent over the failure of his attempt to engineer his mother's murder. This led him to jump off the ten-story building on March 23rd, only to be killed by a shotgun blast passing through the ninth story window. The son had actually murdered himself, so the medical examiner closed the case as a suicide.

Analysis:
There're three things involved here.
1) The power of Almighty - your conscience!
Opus wanted to kill his mom. But it came back to him. As a son, if he had realized his responsibilities and obeyed his mom's words, he never could've come under such situation that he got to think of committing suicide. Though there were safety nets installed, he couldn't escape. so, one should pay for the cunningness that he carries inside before/during his death. There comes God judgment for all the good/bad things you've done in your life.
2) Who deserves the punishment?
Who can be the killer!?
Is it Opus' father that he shot knowingly/unknowingly, nobody can take a chance of killing someone, though unknowingly for which you carry no rights too (a lawyer can explain you this better) or
is it Opus himself (the reason being explained in the 1st point)
or is it his mom who cut the tips for him, who made the son think of crooked things. if at all she would've carefully watched his son after that atleast, she could've prevented Opus from doing it or rather his life!!??
or is it all three of them who is responsible in 1 way or the other for the ultimate happening!?
3) Can you play safe althrough!?
Whatever/However bad you've been in your life, if you play safe in all the steps you take, you can really escape from the bad things. Is it.. cuz if this is not the case there're too many souls walking around this place who need to be killed on the spot!

All three factors sound fair enough. Coming to a conclusion -- God knows! So the 1st point:)

kit kat

have a break.. have a kit kat!
ya.. was eatin kit kat all month long aft feb 1st :p u think of me silly!! no comments!!!

gone with the wind is the frequency of me blogging! as often as this roomie of mine washing her clothes.. ya my room stinks sometimes too :x
three significant things to write about.
doing some meaningful work
Valentine's day
(best)friend's wedding :)

so.. work now is kinda ok. got to know even my company does some amount of meaningful work other than just giving ads in paper and attracting people emotionally and do something internally for employee retention! but its again cat on the wall. cuz this project goes till other 3-4 months max.

Valentine's day.. some great resolutions and realizations!
this another assami here says (from his nose)'in my lo(u)ve(u) naaaa.. there wouldnt beeee any s(hhh)acrifice from both the ends'.. i smile (n think inside.. oh poor chap, no wonder u yet to have a girl friend!!)
so this is the resolution: come what may, adjust n move on..
now i have a serious problem here. when on a fight with him,

1) i should not keep quiet
he says: spk somethin, dont make me more mad keepin quiet. i think inside "areyy, i know na, that u've reached this never-reachable-heights of madness already :p"
2) i should not talk back
wth (so 'wth' is 'what the hell'; cuz even i was this innocent girl before not knowin all these bad words:D) anyways so, he says 'wth, why do you 'speak' like this!!'
3) i should not defend myself
says how selfish you're; dunno what is really expected.. so u ll go on & on about me (of course all bad things) and i'm like this buddha 'that's life my son'.
4) i should not get angry
says oh God, I'm really scared where you'll kill me 1 day!!! i say 'ya.. u torture me like this and i'll really kill you 1 day'
5) i should not cry
do you know anything other than crying!!!?? (when u cry, guys cry too)
6) i should not even laugh
are you crazy!!?? how can someone ever laugh like this when in this case. i think its even more funny n laugh ROFL... hehehh

if there're any experts out there on this topic, plz pen down some suggestions. so that i can try out even that on next fights and get back with the impacts :D
the amount i confuse myself is more than this 419tmc of cauvery water to tamilnadu..
(what a major observation these people here have, i wonder why just the figure matters. fine i'll stop here. i wont blog on politics. anyways thats an utter $hit to me..)
so important thing is with few of my friends went out on Val's day to a restraunt. had good non-veg food. and got a major bulb. the conversation went like this: (only the traditional bulb-givers can understand this joke; others plz dont try it)
will sound better in tamil (wil write the eng version too)
friend: tamilnadu-ku bus odlayam (no buses running bet'n tamilnadu n karnataka)
me: tamilnadu-ku bus odlaya!!!!!!??????? (no buses running!!??)
friend: (before i shut my mouth) indra gandhi sethutaangla!!!??? (indragandhi died)
me: :p :p

(Best) friend's wedding
naahhh not the movie.. not my best friend also. but good friends, infact colleagues (plural cuz both the guy and the girl) ya its a love marriage, how happy they were! wow.. caught up with few old colleagues there, was fun meeting them. best part was wishing the couple. when you wish somebody from deep inside the heart, only good for them. how good it feels inside! thats a real awesome feeling ya.

in between over the weekends got to catch up with few friends whom i've just been knowing from months but not gone out with before. its nice meeting people once in a while and being in touch.. that entire day went good. attended a party at would-be in-law's place(heheh no comments again) nice people!

also my someone feels i'm getting kinda dumber these days and thinks that i really dont know to talk over chat and i only say "nthng to say" da; "wt for me" da; "avlo thaan da"; "mm ya" da. and frankly speaking i'm really poor in making a conversation over chat! :(
i dont know why, my mind tends to think in different ways over a single context. may be this is how innovation begins!! :D

there are people who promise 'something' but come back and repeat the same 'something'... cant help. hope i'm not gonna be a dead meat :)

ridiculous!

this is one of a major problem that we come across in this internet world these days.
i was kind of surprised once when 'v' asked me whoz this 'x' friend of yours as to how he got to know 'x'. 'x' was a childhood classmate of mine, after years i got to meet 'x' in this site called ringo. this site is somewhat similar to yahoo photos/flicker, ie., it is dedicated to upload photographs.
the process as far as i know went like this: if somebody wants to view your album, they need to add you and after your approval, they will be able to view your album. but several times I've been stunned that if i goto one of my friend's album and i was able to access some of his friend 's(who is not a friend of mine) album. i did not take it that big a deal in the beginning.
but when i dug how 'v' got to know 'x', i was truly shocked, yet a lil surprised. cuz i dunno what hit 'v's' brain that day, 'v' had given a google search for my name and the first result was the link to ringo with several photographs of mine and a person who accesses this link was able to view clearly all the photographs in my album or anyone's that case!
i had deleted my ringo account after this, but another shocking thing is my photos were copied to 'x's album and wen i approached 'x' on this, 'x' was not sure as to how those pics of mine had reached his album!
annoying...!

happy republic day!

this is a post aft around 17 days. Pongal went really well, along with few similarities bet'n happenings at my present town then and my home (ya, the curfew and fights i mean) over the end of last week. but no imran was involved ok!?
this is gonna be a long weekend. though the state of city was worse till sunday, i hope nothing would go wrong tomorrow or on the days that follow.
work seems to take a curve which follows Simran's market in tamil film industry! leavin for home kind of early since 2 days, happy:)
so, what is that which is pendin from my side to shit in here!!! ya, my new year trip. two solid days 31st and 1st that covers few places in coorg and nearby place called kushal nagar. it was awesome and that was expected as there was a set of replicas of charlie chaplin who kept cracking jokes which was of course funny, though pjs most!
2 things were really pathetic, input which goes through mouth and the output that comes from a$$! there were no proper toilets, though there were some, think they must've been built during Indra Gandhi times! there were few, think which're waiting for the indo-pak war to get over, so that they can call mussharaf to open them! whatever, end of the day, had to $hit on the forests which we found to be most undeveloped and so the chances of lifting the skirt-up was as bad as Govinda dancing for some tamil pop! think Karnataka government is deeply in demand of oil and natural gas. Kalam should recommend for growing indo-emirates relationship.. most places food was uncooked.. but still enjoyed the trip with the set of 9 pirates, who did not at all find anything to rob out there.
so anyone who is planning to visit these places, i would recommend for a trip of not more than 2 days and plan well in advance.
today im in a mood which is as crazy as the mad dog which eats only vegetarian food in kfc. quarreled with that poor chap. sorry for that dude!
time for me to leave! happy weekend!

1-One-Ek-Onnu-Ondhu-Okka

'1' equivalent in any other language that you know, kindly add..
ya.. this symbolizes just the first post of the year 2007 that I'm dropping in my blog. I started writing in sep '06. around 16 blogs in 4 months. if not as decent as the material length that malika's costume-designer decides, pretty ok for my level, i guess.
i would want this post to be a thanks-giving one!
US celebrates thanks-giving day on Dec 20th i suppose. but v dont have the custom of celebrating all that. now i dont intend to do any sort of imitation over here, so u might as well stop thinking, 'u indian, what do you know other than copying!' we of course do many innovative jobs too.
these days we're pulling in several foreign customs, only motto should be that those would increase the bonding level for whatever relationships the day is meant for.. in a +ve way.
i find this start of the new year to be the best time to express my thanks to people whom i'm indebted to all life long.
First thanks goto this Dood. One fine day He was given the RS (for you all non-softwares RS is Requirement Spec) of giving life to something that has two cute small eyes of ant size, a narrow sharp nose resembling a plane's fin etc etc which as a whole looked like a soft toy (something of tweety's girl friend sort). And there existed a Fighter-Cock-Couple (FCC-may i) of this kind : the man does everything on earth other than earning, the woman does nothing else on earth other than crying. So, He thought this sweety should be gifted to this sweet FCC so that it'll be good for her to grow stiff! thats how was born on this earth -- meee :)
A big Thanks goto our Dude God followed by the fighter-cock-couple.

now i should tell about this aunt. she is of this old sri devi types. wears a thick red lip stick always with a sweet broad smile and a caring nature. when I was in kindergarten, I used to stand in the dress which God first sent me on a tour to this earth, staring at the mickey mouse pencil box my cousin(aunt's daughter) was owning. my aunt who had as big a heart as Mother Teresa called me and gave me that pencil box. i asked her, what for sugan(thinking inside, now sugan you shut ur garb, dont say 'uuvaahh i want it, i want it' cuz i want it idiot). aunt said 'i ll buy her another 1'. i blurted 'oh, then sugan can have this, buy me a new one:p' what a cunning bum me!!! my aunt gives me whatever she gets for my cousin. she had served food for me & my sister several times. she is one reason for us to be alive today!
Thank you periyamma (thats how we call her)!! ya ya, im coming home with your ever-expected gift this time. you gotta wait for 3 more days:)

this is the time i put myself into this circle of seriousness like abhishek bacchan in D2 for the 1st ever time in life. took a decision as bold as Jhansi Rani. so, this is about my X std class-miss. she is my Guru, care-taker. without her I wouldn't have had a better education in my life. I passed out my 10th class from a Government school with the District 1st credit and wanted to get into a Matriculation school for my higher secondary. I did not attain enlightment like buddha then not to have any desires in life! Being from a very poor background, mom couldnt help me accomplishing my desire. so i went to my teacher, explained her everything clearly. she being the correspondent of a popular matriculation school out there, took me in with '0' fee absolutely! i passed my higher secondary from a decent school with decent grades. my college entry fee was paid by her.
You're literally Saraswathi Devi's ambassador for me. A great thanks to you Miss!

then comes this teen. one way when i was into this superb mood of reading woman's era and femina and explore things, the other way i had to hit my bio-maths-physic-chem books of my higher secondary. my mom had to record these lines as they've become the most used ones during this time 'janu kanna.. you've to really stop looking at the guy up-stairs and start studying. you need to crack the board exam, then only you can buy lot of jewels for me.. etc etc'
i somehow managed to get admissions in a decent college and there came the same old villain again - 'the fee'. what will i do? this was but in one way good for me; most days my college Director would ask me for an appointment and so I'll be in the admin building bunking classes! while every other soul in college used to look at me as how they look at a poodle starving from years and waiting for a piece of bone with all the mercy on the planet, i used to carry the thoughts 'i'm the cheif financial advisor of the college' and wait at the office for an incredibly longer period! God is making me stiff you know:)
so this guy used to see me everyday, waiting there and thinking seriously how to improve the collge finance. he called me one day and said 'as i have been noticing you thinking deeply over the college finance, i'm giving you this benefit of paying your fee to me once you find a way to move out of this place and another company to spoil it to the core. i gladly accepted it. I passed out as a university ranker atleast a little that I could do for the gretest gift i got!
now thanks to the Director!
After comin to work, I found my jaan-e-mann who could accept me the way I am (add 'and always scold me for my carelessness':p). The kind of person who makes me proud with his IIT-IIM calls, a great philosopher and a philanthrophist:) Frankly speaking, I have got no words to describe him! I did not find a meaning for the life I'm gonna live except for the materialistic things which I've to give others around till I found him. The feeling sprrrrrrouted cuz of that abbayi:p
Thanks to my jaan-e-mann! I love you for what you're:)
Today I feel I'm blessed and that's really an awesome feel!
Life is not that easy, one of the senior guy whom I used to report to at work always says this! I would say its all in the way we're gonna take it. Don't tell God how big your problems are, instead tell the problems, how big your God is! I Thank God for bringing me up as a bold, strong, decent human. As He expected I'm pretty stiff now. Thanks very much!