Days ... 2 dark days!!

The Monday dawn of 17th Dec ’07 did not do good to me. The dark layer of the dusk prior night stayed… an abrupt hiatus that we had to put for this uncertainty, solution-less problem, the gorgeous nightmare… the love - supposed-to-be eternal love!
3 months time to get over 2 years of affection, kindness.. the happy days.. mischief, grace, charm, poise… trust, dignity, composure. the two-in-one feel!
those 2 days, your strength, character and spirit were my reason for waking up in the morning till drifting off to sleep.. every inch of my thoughts carried something so light being so heavy, it kept shouting at me “Let's go back to the way we were”! For me you’re my better half and we make each other whole! But tell me your side of it--I'm listening.
I felt so lost and wondered how you would have handled the same! But I could find you matured enough unlike how you were in our early times. I dreamt of scrapping somebody in Hindi, you were my reviewer there and opened my eyes to see everything empty around. Hassan buys Amir a handbook of Quoran on his birthday, and Amir would read stories and the poems he writes to Hassan, under a pomegranate tree - I don’t know the correlation but somehow remembered you in each word of this part in Kite runner…
I missed you! To the core. To the extent that no one could envisage!
tho the cute lil candle that I tried to lit in the shell where I dumped myself gave a room full of light, yet I could see just the shade that was leftover.
And in the shade, it was You whom I could spot… along with myself! Now the one (me) has broken into two :(
It dint take me more than 2 days – to break this dreadful silence between us.
The moment I saw a message creeping in my mobile phone, 'I'll be late today' tears gushed out and the moment next it was me back, I couldn't control asking you to come to me!

But whatever, its this we know, we have to take it. Now the rest life is for crying, cribbing those who were not for us. The amount of respect that we give them to the level we try not to hurt them, they don’t really deserve it. They are just old, so though they do injustice to us, it’s their age and we are not supposed to hurt them now. Let them be contented for the rest of their lives that we dint go against them. Here, we stand taller than what they do! at every aspect of life… spoiling our own selves to see them smile! and this life, its pathetic to fathom what it would be like without you in it!