Courageous.....thup

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."
mine is shrinking now..
add "after" before every point
1. working on a never ending project, call it a huge learning experience
2. listening to a set of same 300 songs around 100 times a day,
3. walk for about 4 km, for a change not in the morning or evening, but during this time 10AM-1AM, between my cube and my lead's.
4. doing approx 10:1 night outs
5. getting out of this no-onsite frustrations,
6. being in this prolonged wait-gonna-continue-till-june
i've grown kinda courageous.. courageous enough to lose my mobile, ya may sound like no big deal! fate of this cute, greyish 2600, with only 2rs balance in it has got over around 11:30AM IST today! but i dont afford losing it at any point of time. so..
1. no more hutch care/postpaid/credit card request calls
2. no more messaging till mid night and falling asleep in between a hot conversation, ending up in irritating the other person more
3. no need to be conscious in malls/any crowded places that case
4. no need to carry a hand bag while wearing a salwar
5. no need to check for missed call/message in an infinitely longer interval of 2 minutes
6. no problem of mid night buggers
planning to stay without a mobile for next 6 months atleast, atmost 6 yrs!
killer is "Mr.Angry".. i was angry, angry like mad. i couldn't hit myself or him, i was hitting the poor mobile. threw it down twice in full anger, both the times it shattered into pieces! Third time threw it and walked off, just in 2 minutes i went back to take it, but couldn't find it. searched, searched for around 3 continuous hours. there were only 2 females in that place when i was fighting, in just a single moment i'm not able to believe how can somebody jump in there and flick it! i'm so depressed thinking of it!
like what this Chinese Proverb says, "If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow".. i'm caught in this 100 days of sorrow now!
what do i think of myself i don't know. anger killing me spoiling my life. shit, get the hell out of it!
need to realize this "If we practice and eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, soon the whole world will be blind and toothless"
causes of anger are reasonable. but whatever it may be, one moment of silence and patience is all needed. else unfit to live a human life!! Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance!
in the middle of all these commotions, a good thing to get a relief! promotion.. for this 2 yrs of life/death thing!!
nopz.. next month increment... definitely not on a new mobile purchase!!