Wednesday, April 04, 2012

2012

okay, I'm definitely not writing a new year blog, though I've been trying to gather a wee bit of interest ever since this year was born.
Quite an eventful year so far and happy to remember the amount of arguments with the spouse has gone way way down in this year. So when I say eventful, I must also be clear about to whom it was so and can't deny its been for him more than me ;)
Tirupathi trip - mid Jan, a very good darshan - felt peaceful and as if it was worked out at the right time of the year! Walking up the hill was an experience after years in life. Though the initial part was hectic and I was worried to see the hubby-dear struggle through the stairs, we somehow squeezed out energy and completed in 4hrs. The drive and company were an absolute pleasure, good to see the wedded life turning into heaven over time. Touch wood.
There has been another member arrived into the family, sister-in-law bore her 2nd kid and life has taken a new lead for all of us.
The new office space and the travel being made hectic, bangalore traffic is one helluva hopeless thing in the world - working from home is an utter bliss though its boring to be without the colleagues' company!
Couple of other good things in the making and I would post as and when it all take a great shape. To look back at all this reminds that however quick life moves on, there can never be a compensatory for what had happened, good or bad.
Reading through the Mahabharata (the illustrated retelling by Devdutt Pattanaik) these days, the couple hours I spend in the cab everyday - very refreshing!
Sometimes it feels, there is no excitement in whatsoever is "happening" in life. Signs of getting old, probably. But time and experience have definitely helped cultivate a lot of good habits. Turning into a more casual, helping, accepting personality in itself is a significant growth.
Being able to realize what the elders at home keep preaching since childhood, rather what was once considered the daily slogan that the jobless people at home sing around, is like, as if 'what goes around, comes around'. There is a very different learning from that, something of tremendous value.
To live with so many people, the way you start perceiving every relation, be it a friend or a cousin or a colleague or a stranger, over years, and such logic on similar lines, is all something I badly missed knowing couple of years ago.
When all "looks" well, at times there are things that are to be termed more than just "strange"! Well, I wouldn't completely agree, on the other hand, that its a strange quality, as what when consciously observed seems to be very common and there were very rare exceptions who did not belong to this pool, the pool that  lack comfort to just to be what they are. And even worse, they do not want others to be their own self.
A colleague here keeps saying that the Buddha teaches how to live in the reality. I admire this concept so much, that everytime when I get back to worry about something in the past, it rings to me that I gotta come back to reality! It teaches to not be carrying over any judgments from the day-to-day incidents, simply called being "non-judgmental".
For ex, you get into an argument with someone, say a week ago and then when I meet the person after a week, what I remember at the first look is about the argument that I had. In this, the reality is this week and the moment when I'm meeting this person, past is the week before and the then argument! I'm largely struck in the past that I lose the reality of meeting this person, here now and there's NO absolute argument in this reality! So, if you can be a Buddha, you'll probably not even remember the past week. and the percentage of happiness or a stress-free life is proportional. Will I gain this over practice, is a million dollar question. I'm however trying to do my best though.
These amazing concepts that, for once, when just listened will make you feel so light about life. And I can imagine how much of a positive impact can be gained, if only followed. The least I could do was to go on to read this book called "How to become Buddha in 5 weeks". I know, the title is roughly funny!
Curiosity and envy are the other two different foods for thought in a while now. I was reading this book "The difficulty of being good" by Gurucharan Das, he quotes that he is around 50+ now and so far in his life he has not met one single person who lives WITHOUT a bit of envy! And I feel, how true!
The goodness about growing up to be an adult is to realize that these are certain holes that are so common in a human and eventually we start accepting even an enemy - The benefits of growing up!
To end this post with, the recently spent Saturday early morning, driving along the NICE corridor - the thought what a good weather evoked in us - with no specific destination in mind, later end up on a typical  Kannada breakfast at the Kamat on the Mysore road is a pleasant musing to the tastebuds.
Life is good!
Thathatsu.